Is this a message that i have been abandoned spiritually?

My dear, the Lord will never abandon you.It sounds more like you were in the middle of an intensely real- sad dream I too have had them ,especially when this happens slightly before waking it can leave you with an "empty"feeling all day.But trust in God and your faith-sometimes we are challenged [tested]with this but more now than ever its necessary to remain strong.I will pray for you to get back those good feelings and to have a smile brought back to your face :)